please

whole

so

a lot can change in a few days. nothing is secret, at this point, and what has become completely transparent are all the horrible lies he told to, and about, us to each other. and in the end she and i have spoken, and apologized, and clarified, and essentially - he's fucked. and he earned it. and i feel lighter.... embarrassed, and stupid, and ashamed... but also lighter. i hope she has all the strength and love and support she needs. i will help her if i can. i guess we're supposed to learn something, but my take-away at this point is that he's the most deceptive manipulator i've ever met. facing tomorrow with kindness and hope - b.

sept 7

dear you: good luck with that. shitty people do shitty things.

if a tree falls in an empty forest...

if one is in a "relationship" wherein, due to situational circumstance, it is only known to the two involved parties, does said relationship actually exist? being a ghost is weighing on me.

tired

I am tired of everything being a disaster. I am tired of feeling at loose ends. I am tired of the way things are. The first thing, and only thing, I can change is myself. I'm working on it.

and then there's this

I don't care what kind of a crappy mood I'm in, this always, always makes me laugh. Happy September, y'all.