dan

damn

why

why does everything just have to be so hard all the time?

text

possibly my favorite text of all time, between my friends and i. J1, on a third grade field trip: "oh my god this is so fucking horrible, i'm about to drink purell." J2: "do it. i drank scope for a buzz once. i'm not proud but i did it."

xoxo

update

ansley has a virus and needed blood today. I just.. worry.

ansley

ansley has a fever, and after three rounds of chemo, is already losing her hair. she's been moved back into isolation because her white blood cell count has dropped dramatically; as a result, her immune system is seriously compromised. keep thinking good thoughts, friends, and pray if that's how you do.

c

a friend texted, regarding her son: "c doesn't want carrots in his lunch anymore because they look like penises and taste like shampoo." i cannot stop laughing about this.

gift

i love my new shirt dad. go cards!

fight

update

ansley has stage 3 rhabdomyosarcoma and started chemo yesterday. the tumor is eroding the bone at the base of her skull, and impacting her sinuses and palate. radiation should start next week. she won't be able to come home; she'll be hospitalized for the next (almost) year. please continue to think strong thoughts... she's going to have to fight hard.

cruel

train

raw

night

we almost lost ansley last night. her little tee-tiny body is working hard. keep fighting the good fight, little one. we love you so big.

update

ansley has been diagnosed with rhabdomyosarcoma... they are unable to remove the tumor because of its size and location, and this sweet kindergartener will start 42 weeks of chemo and radiation on monday. only three hundred fifty kids a year get this diagnosis... that's one shitty lottery to hit. send love and good thoughts please. and money, if you can. st. jude's is worth it.